sometimes

sometimes

i think i'm invincible

i think i can walk through walls

i think i can have it all

and then sometimes

i get knocked down a step

i get pushed back to reality

i get woken up to my life again

and i tease myself into thinking

i can have it all

i can do it all

and i let myself believe

that this is it

and one more time

it falls apart

and one more time

i let my heart

get broken

broken

broken

and one more time

it falls apart

and one more time

i play the part

of that girl

who lets her heart

get broken

broken

broken apart.

still

sometimes

i think i'm strong enough

i think i'm built so tough

i think that i can handle anything

and then sometimes

i notice i'm falling down

i notice i'm starting to turn around

i notice i'm not as strong as i thought i was

and i tease myself into thinking

that i dont want this

that i dont need you

that i am bigger

and better

and stronger

and harder

but i can't keep lying to me.

so one more time

it falls apart

and one more time

i let my heart

get broken

broken

broken

and one more time

it falls apart

and one more time

i play the part

of that girl

who lets her heart

get broken

broken

broken apart.

if only i knew better. i could protect myself. if only i could play the game, play like someone else.

if only i could realize that i'm not the girl i was. i'm not as strong, i'm not as smart, i'm phased by love.

but sometimes

i think i'm invincible

and sometimes

i think i can have it all

until i

realize

that i'm me

and i get my heart broken.

L