Saturday, July 11, 2009

sometimes

sometimes
i think i'm invincible
i think i can walk through walls
i think i can have it all
and then sometimes
i get knocked down a step
i get pushed back to reality
i get woken up to my life again

and i tease myself into thinking
i can have it all
i can do it all
and i let myself believe
that this is it

and one more time
it falls apart
and one more time
i let my heart
get broken
broken
broken

and one more time
it falls apart
and one more time
i play the part
of that girl
who lets her heart
get broken

broken
broken apart.

still
sometimes
i think i'm strong enough
i think i'm built so tough
i think that i can handle anything
and then sometimes
i notice i'm falling down
i notice i'm starting to turn around
i notice i'm not as strong as i thought i was

and i tease myself into thinking
that i dont want this
that i dont need you
that i am bigger
and better
and stronger
and harder

but i can't keep lying to me.

so one more time
it falls apart
and one more time
i let my heart
get broken
broken
broken

and one more time
it falls apart
and one more time
i play the part
of that girl
who lets her heart
get broken

broken
broken apart.

if only i knew better. i could protect myself. if only i could play the game, play like someone else.
if only i could realize that i'm not the girl i was. i'm not as strong, i'm not as smart, i'm phased by love.

but sometimes
i think i'm invincible
and sometimes
i think i can have it all
until i
realize
that i'm me

and i get my heart broken.

L

1 comment:

  1. Quit beating yourself up. You are human. You are smart, you are strong and I know you are tough, but you are human - we all are. Sometimes life knocks us down, but we get up and realize...

    we can have it all.

    Broken hearts, unfortunately, are part of the all.

    You're gonna be okay.

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