I am probably the most gullible person on the planet. And the biggest problem with that is my indifference. Sadly, I've embraced my naivete and accepted that even though I'm being spoon-fed lies, I like them and I don't want to stop hearing them.
I love hearing his lies. Those lies keep me smiling. His lies make me happy. Nothing compares.
And even when someone else finds a way to make me happy, somehow his lies sneak back into view. I can be distracted by the truth, but still I'd want hear his lies. I willingly walk away from something honest and possible and promising to run toward those beautiful, compromising lies. He has such a way with me. He has such a way with everyone. So then, it can't be entirely my fault that I'm so addicted.
But I should know better than to fall in love with the same lies that I've seen others fall for. I should know better. But nothing compares.
since you've been gone i can do whatever i want/ but nothing can take away these blues
Picking lies over the truth. Giving in to "ignorance is bliss". Convincing myself that this messed up situation is actually a good one, could actually work out in my best interest. At one point seeing all that in writing would have turned me around, could have changed the path I'm set on... but I'm past that point... I'm so deep in this that I have no hope of turning around.
And I have no desire to.
Just the thought of those lies stirs up flutters in my stomach, speeds my heartbeat, pulls an amazing real smile across my face. Ah. Nothing compares.
because nothing compares- nothing compares to you.
L
*lyrics from Sinead O'Connor's "Nothing Compares to You"
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